Lyrics: Live at Bearsville Theater

I won’t forget when Peter Pan came to my house, took my hand
I said I was a boy; I’m glad he didn’t check.
I learned to fly, I learned to fight
I lived a whole life in one night
We saved each other’s lives out on the pirate’s deck.

And I remember that night
When I’m leaving a late night with some friends
And I hear somebody tell me it’s not safe,
someone should help me
I need to find a nice man to walk me home.

When I was a boy, I scared the pants off of my mom,
Climbed what I could climb upon
And I don’t know how I survived,
I guess I knew the tricks that all boys knew.

And you can walk me home, but I was a boy, too.

I was a kid that you would like, just a small boy on her bike
Riding topless, yeah, I never cared who saw.
My neighbor come outside to say, “Get your shirt,”
I said “No way, it’s the last time I’m not breaking any law.”

And now I’m in this clothing store, and the signs say less is more
More that’s tight means more to see, more for them, not more for me
That can’t help me climb a tree in ten seconds flat

When I was a boy, See that picture? That was me
Grass-stained shirt and dusty knees
And I know things have gotta change,
They got pills to sell, they’ve got implants to put in,
they’ve got implants to remove

But I am not forgetting…that I was a boy too

And like the woods where I would creep, it’s a secret I can keep
Except when I’m tired, ‘cept when I’m being caught off guard
And I’ve had a lonesome awful day, the conversation finds its way
To catching fire-flies out in the backyard.

And so I tell the man I’m with about the other life I lived
And I say, “Now you’re top gun, I have lost and you have won”
And he says, “Oh no, no, can’t you see

When I was a girl, my mom and I we always talked
And I picked flowers everywhere that I walked.
And I could always cry, now even when I’m alone I seldom do
And I have lost some kindness
But I was a girl too.
And you were just like me, and I was just like you

When I went to your town on the wide open shore,
Oh I must confess, I was drawn, I was drawn to the ocean,
I thought it spoke to me, it said, “Look at us,
We’re not churches, not schools, not skating ponds, swimming pools,
And we have lost people, haven’t we though?”v
Oh, that’s what the ocean can know of a body,
And that’s when I came back to town, this town is a song about you.
You don’t know how lucky you are, you don’t know how much I adore you,v
You are the welcoming back from the ocean.

I went back to the ocean today,
With my books and my papers I went to the rocks by the ocean,
But the weather changed quickly, oh the ocean said,
“What are you trying to find, I don’t care, I’m not kind,
I’ve bludgeoned your sailors, I’ve spat out their keepsakes,
Oh it’s ashes to ashes, but always the ocean,”
But the ocean can’t come to this town, this town is a song about you.
You don’t know how lucky you are, you don’t know how much I adore you,
You are the welcoming back from the ocean.

And the ones that can know you so well are the ones that can swallow you whole.
I have a good and I have an evil, I thought the ocean, the ocean thought nothing,
You are the welcoming back from the ocean.

I didn’t go back today,
I wanted to show you that I was more land than water,
I went to pick flowers. I brought them to you,
Look at me, look at them, with their salt up the stem,
But you frowned when I smiled and I tried to arrange them,
You said, “Let me tell you the song of this town,”
You said, “Everything closes at five. After that, well, you just got the bars,
You don’t know how precious you are, walking around with your little shoes dangling,
I am the one who lives with the ocean,

It’s where we came from, you know, and sometimes I just want to go back,
After a day, we drink ’til we’re drowning, walk to the ocean, wade in with our workboots,
Wade in our workboots, try to finish the job.
You don’t know how precious you are, I am the one who lives with the ocean.
You don’t know how I am the one. You don’t know how I am the one.”

Time it was I had a dream
You’re the dream come true
If I had the world to give
I’d give it all to you

I’ll take you to the mountains
I will take you to the sea
I’ll show you how this life became
A miracle to me

You’ll fly away
But take my hand until that day
So when they ask how far love goes
When my job’s done
You’ll be the one who knows

All the things you treasure most
Will be the hardest ones
I will watch you struggle on
Before the answers come

But I won’t make it harder
I’ll be there to cheer you on
I’ll shine the light that guides you down
The road you’re walking on

You’ll fly away
But take my hand until that day
So when they ask how far love goes
When my job’s done
You’ll be the one who knows

Before the mountains call to you
Before you leave this home
I want to teach your heart to trust
As I will teach my own

But sometimes I will ask the moon
Where it shined upon you last
And shake my head and laugh and say
It all went by so fast

You’ll fly away
But take my hand until that day
So when they ask how far love goes
When my job’s done
You’ll be the one who knows

I threw your keys in the water, I looked back,
They’d frozen halfway down in the ice.
They froze up so quickly, the keys and their owners,
Even after the anger, it all turned silent, and
The everyday turned solitary,
So we came to February.

First we forgot where we’d planted those bulbs last year,
Then we forgot that we’d planted at all,
Then we forgot what plants are altogether,
and I blamed you for my freezing and forgetting and
The nights were long and cold and scary,
Can we live through February?

You know I think Christmas was a long red glare,
Shot up like a warning, we gave presents without cards,
And then the snow,
And then the snow came, we were always out shoveling,
And we’d drop to sleep exhausted,
Then we’d wake up, and it’s snowing.

And February was so long that it lasted into March

And found us walking a path alone together.
You stopped and pointed and you said, “That’s a crocus,”
And I said, “What’s a crocus?” and you said, “It’s a flower,”
I tried to remember, but I said, “What’s a flower?”
You said, “I still love you.”

The leaves were turning as we drove to the hardware store,
My new lover made me keys to the house,
And when we got home, well we just started chopping wood,
Because you never know how next year will be,
And we’ll gather all our arms can carry,
I have lost to February.

Tonight was just great, she taught us the sign for peace
Now she’s made us some popcorn, we’ve turned out the lights
And we’re watching movies
I don’t understand and she tries to explain
How a spaceship is riding through somebody’s brain
And there’s blood and guts and…

She’s the best one that we’ve ever had
She sits on her hair and she’s tall as my dad
And she tie-dyed my shirt and she pierced her own ear
And it’s peace, man, cool, yeah, the babysitter’s here.

Her boyfriend is Tom but we call him “the king of romance”
He wears an American flag on the butt of his ripped up pants and
Will they get married with kids of their own
He says “Not if she’s going to college we won’t”
and he kisses her, oh, someday I’ll have a boyfriend just like that

She’s the best one that we’ve ever had
She sits on her hair and she’s tall as my dad
And she got mad at dinner when Tom drank a beer
But peace man, cool hey, the babysitter’s here

And we all went to see her go dance at the high school
We made her a big card
And she told us that she’d be the unicorn wearing the pink leotard, and
There she was leaping up just like she said
With a sparkling horn coming out of her head
And she’s oh, oh, oh, oh
(I can’t wait to give her the card, I can’t wait to give her the card)
She’s the best one…

OK, so the play was called “The Unicorn” and she was the
unicorn so that means that the star was my babysitter.
But it’s Saturday night, I can’t sleep and I’m watching the news
She says do me a favor don’t go with a guy who would
Make you choose and
I don’t understand and she tries to explain
And all that mascara runs down in her pain ’cause she’s leaving me

You’re the best one that we’ve ever had
You sit on your hair and you’re tall as my dad
And I’ll make you a picture for college next year
So hush now, peace, man
The babysitter’s here
The best babysitter’s here

Yea, there was a time I didn’t like the love, I liked the climbers,
I was no sister then, I was running out of time and one liners,
And I was afraid, like you are when you’re too young to know the time, and
So I watch the way you take your fear and hoard the horizon,
You point, you have a word for every woman you can lay your eyes on,
Like you own them just because you bought the time,
And you turn to me, you say you hope I’m not threatened,

Oh — I’m not that petty, as cool as I am, I thought you’d know this already,
I will not be afraid of women, I will not be afraid of women.

So now were at a club, you watch the woman dancing, she is drunk,
She is smiling and she’s falling in a slow, descending funk,
And the whole bar is loud and proud and everybody’s trying, yeah.
You play the artist, saying, “Is it how she moves, or how she looks?”
I say, It’s loneliness suspended to our own like grappling hooks,
And as long as she’s got noise, she’s fine.
But I could teach her how I learned to dance when the music’s ended,

Oh — and that’s not petty, as cool as I am, I thought you’d know this already,
I will not be afraid of women, I will not be afraid of women.
You tried to make me doubt, to make me guess, tried to make me feel like a little less,
Oh, I liked you when your soul was bared, I thought you knew how to be scared,
And now its amazing what you did to make me stay,
But truth is just like time, it catches up and it just keeps going,

And so I’m leaving, you can find out how much better things can get,
And if it helps, Id say I feel a little worse than I did when we met,
So when you find someone else, you can try again, it might work next time,
You look out of the kitchen window and you shake your head and say low,
“If I could believe that stuff, Id say that woman has a halo,”
And I look out and say, “Yeah, she’s really blond,”
And then I go outside and join the others, I am the others,

Oh — and that’s not easy, I don’t know what you saw, I want somebody who sees me,
I will not be afraid of women, I will not be afraid of women.

I’m sorry that I left you
With your questions all alone
But I was too happy driving
And too angry to drive home
I was thinking about the easy courage
Of my distant friends
They said I could let this bridge wash out
And never make amends

Can I blow this small town
Make a big sound
Like the star of a film noir postcard
Can I just forget the frames I shared with you

And I can’t believe what they’re saying
They’re saying I can change my mind
Start over on Spring Street
I’m welcome anytime

Well there are Spring Street storefront daisies
Floating on their neon stems
There are new shirts on the clothes racks
Should I feel like one of them
I can find a small apartment
Where a struggling artist died
And pretend because I pay the rent
I know that pain inside

Yeah, let’s watch the tour bus stop and tell us
Here’s the scene of a spring green life dream
Take the best part
Write it in your caffeine diary

And I can’t believe what they’re saying
They’re saying I can leave tonight
Start over on Spring Street
I’m welcome anytime

This year April had a blizzard
Just to show she did not care
And the new dead leaves
They made the trees look like children with gray hair
But I’ll push myself up through the dirt
And shake my petals free
I’m resolved to being born
And so resigned to bravery

Yeah the one who leaves this also grieves this
Too much rain on a prairie flood plain
Houses floating, love is like that
We built on the river

And that’s to say, yeah I’m leaving
But I don’t have to go there
I don’t have to go to Spring Street
‘Cause it’s spring everywhere…

I never thought you were the letter writing type
so now I see the words you chose the way you write
so I started to write back about the trees in the snow
and I saw a bird, couldn’t say what it was but I thought you’d know
you always surprised me

And if I wrote You
If I wrote You
You would know me
and you would not write me again

And when the spring came and flooded all the streams
It’s like how you got the night you told me all you dreams
And when the barn roof sagged after an icy bout
It’s like how you shrugged when you knew the truth was the only way out
but not the only way

And if I wrote you
If I wrote you
You would know me
and you would not write me again

We drew our arms around the bastard sons
We never would drink to the chosen ones
Well you know the way I left was not the way I planned
But I thought the world needed love and a steady hand
so I’m steady now

And I’m so happy
I had to tell you
And I love you
And you will not write me again
You will not write me again
You will not write me again

Oh my fair North Star
I have held to you dearly
I had asked you to steer me
‘Til one cloud-scattered night

I got lost in my travels
I met Leo the lion
Met a king and met a giant
With their errant light

There’s the wind and the rain
And the mercy of the fallen
Who say they have no claim to know what’s right

There’s the weak and the strong
And the beds that have no answer
And that’s where I may rest my head tonight

I saw all the bright people
In imposing flocks they landed
And they got what they demanded
And they scratched at the ground

Then they flew
And the field grew as sweetly for the flightless
Who had longing yet despite this
They could hear every sound

There’s the wind and the rain
And the mercy of the fallen
Who say they have no claim to know what’s right

And if your sister or your brother
Were stumbling on their last mile
In a self-inflicted exile
You’d wish for them a humble friend

And I hope someday
That the best of Falstaff’s planners
Give me seven half-built manors
Where half dreams may dream without end

There’s the wind and the rain
And the mercy of the fallen
Who say hey it’s not my place to know what’s right

There’s the weak and the strong
And the many stars that guide us
We have some of them inside us

Perhaps I am a miscreation
No one knows the truth there is no future here
And you’re the DJ speaks to my insomnia
And laughs at all I have to fear
Laughs at all I have to fear
You always play the madmen poets
Vinyl vision grungy bands
You never know who’s still awake
You never know who understands and

Are you out there, can you hear this?
Jimmy Olson, Johnny Memphis,
I was out here listening all the time
And though the static walls surround me
You were out there and you found me
I was out here listening all the time

Last night we drank in parking lots
And why do we drink?
I guess we do it cause
And when I turned your station on
You sounded more familiar than that party was
You more familiar than that party
It’s the first time I stayed up all night
It’s getting light I hear the birds
I’m driving home on empty streets
I think I put my shirt on backwards

Are you out there, can you hear this
Jimmy Olson , Johnny Memphis
I was out here listening all the time
And though the static walls surround me
You were out there and you found me
I was out here listening all the time

And what’s the future, who will choose it?
Politics of love and music
Underdogs who turn the tables
Indie versus major labels
There’s so much to see through
Like our parents do more drugs than we do
Oh….
Corporate parents, corporate town
I know every TV set that has them lit
They preach that I should save the world
They pray that I won’t do a better job of it
Pray that I won’t do a better job
So tonight I turned your station on just so I’d be understood
Instead another voice said I was just too late
And just no good….

Calling Olson, Calling Memphis
I am calling, can you hear this?
I was out here listening all the time
And I will write this down
and then
I will not be alone again yeah
I was out here listening
Oh yeah I was out here listening
Oh yeah I am out here listening all the time

And you know the light is fading all too soon
You’re just two umbrellas one late afternoon
You don’t know the next thing you will say
This is your favorite kind of day
It has no walls
The beauty of the rain
Is how it falls, how it falls, how it falls

And there’s nothing wrong but there is something more
And sometimes you wonder what you love her for
She says you’ve known her deepest fears
‘Cause she’s shown you a box of stained-glass tears
It can’t be all
The truth about the rain
Is how it falls, how it falls, how it falls

But when she gave you more to find
You let her think she’d lost her mind
And that’s all on you
Feeling helpless if she asked for help
Or scared you’d have to change yourself

And you can’t deny this room will keep you warm
You can look out of your window at the storm
But you watch the phone and hope it rings
You’ll take her any way she sings
Or how she calls
The beauty of the rain
Is how it falls, how it falls, how it falls
How it falls, how it falls, how it falls

I knew a guy, I thought he was my first love,
But he had to decide between me and the one before,
And she stacked it all up, like a house of cards,
Said if he didn’t come back, he’d find her flattened on the floor.
And though I went and lived in my own Hell,
Thought that I could die as well,
I let him go where he thought he had to go.
Cause I never took heavy words for granted,
And I never took the undeserved advantage,
No I never took the easy way,
So why don’t you take it a little easy on me now.

Out on the road, I had so many questions,
I thought I would explode just for some attention,
Like an acolyte, I saw the flames of towering tapers,
Almost proselytized by those gleaming piles of paper,
Yeah I watched those power huddles
And their coats draped over puddles,
And their “Trust me, baby, I’m the one you need.”
But I never took heavy words for granted,
And I never took the undeserved advantage,
No I never took the easy way,
So why don’t you take it a little easy on me now.

We don’t want to be the ones to lie and cheat and slander,
So we hold each other up to the higher standard,
But I’ll tell you what; I’ll never try to make it hard.
Cause when you’re hard just to be hard,
The only thing that’s hard is you.

So here’s what I took, I kept the wine and laughter,
Until every path just grew up and ever after,v
Through the peaks and twisty canyons,
I made many great companions,

Best of all is the one who loves me like you do.
I never took heavy words for granted,
And I never took the undeserved advantage,
No I never took the easy way,
So why don’t you take it a little easy on me now.

I never took heavy words for granted,
And it’s much too late to even want the shortcut,
Yeah, I never took the easy way,
So you can take it a little easy on me now.
Cause we know that easy’s never easy anyhow.

Go ahead, push your luck
Find out how much love the world can hold
Once upon a time I had control
And reined my soul in tight

Well the whole truth
It’s like the story of a wave unfurled

But I held the evil of the world
So I stopped the tide
Froze it up from inside

And it felt like a winter machine
That you go through and then
You catch your breath and winter starts again
And everyone else is spring bound

And when I chose to live
There was no joy – it’s just a line I crossed
It wasn’t worth the pain my death would cost
So I was not lost or found

And if I was to sleep
I knew my family had more truth to tell
And so I traveled down a whispering well
To know myself through them

Growing up, my Mom had a room full of books
And hid away in there
Her father raging down a spiral stair
‘Til he found someone
Most days his son

And sometimes I think
My father, too, was a refugee
I know they tried to keep their pain from me
They could not see what it was for

But now I’m sleeping fine
Sometimes the truth is like a second chance
I am the daughter of a great romance
And they are the children of the war

Well the sun rose with so many colors
It nearly broke my heart
It worked me over like a work of art
And I was a part of all that

So go ahead, push your luck
Say what it is you’ve got to say to me
We will push on into that mystery
And it’ll push right back
And there are worse things than that

‘Cause for every price

And every penance that I could think of
It’s better to have fallen in love
Than never to have fallen at all

‘Cause when you live in a world
Well it gets in to who you thought you’d be
And now I laugh at how the world changed me
I think life chose me after all

If my words did glow with the gold of sunshine
And my tunes were played on the harp unstrung,
Would you hear my voice come thru the music,
Would you hold it near as it were your own?

It’s a hand-me-down, the thoughts are broken,
Perhaps they’re better left unsung.
I don’t know, don’t really care
Let there be songs to fill the air.

Ripple in still water,
When there is no pebble tossed,
Nor wind to blow.
Reach out your hand if your cup be empty,
If your cup is full may it be again,
Let it be known there is a fountain,
That was not made by the hands of men.

There is a road, no simple highway,
Between the dawn and the dark of night,
And if you go no one may follow,
That path is for your steps alone.

Ripple in still water,
When there is no pebble tossed,
Nor wind to blow.

You who choose to lead must follow
But if you fall you fall alone,
If you should stand then whos to guide you?
If I knew the way I would take you home.

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